wounded

im smiling on the outside;
but im hurt beneath ma skin;
ma eyes r fading;ma soul is bleeding;
i try to make it seems okay;but the faith is wearing thin;

so help me heal this wound;
leave it open for way too long;
help me fill this song eventhough this is not ur fault;
that im open n im bleeding;
all over on ur brand new rug;
n i need someone to help me sew them up;

i only wanted a magazine;
i only wanted a movie screen;
i only wanted the life i read about n dream;
n now ma mind is an open book;
n now ma heart is an open wound;
n now ma life is an open soul for all to see;

so u come along; i push u away;
then kick and scream for u to stay;
coz i need someone to help me;
i need some one to help me;
to help me heal this wound;
n i need someone to help me sew them up~~

ill keep on writing;not for everyone to read;but just 4 ma heart to speak~~

Assalamualaikum
 Today imma talk bout ma selfish...selllfissshhhh frens...iyaaa si penjual ikan itu. I am kinda sad...coz i really do love all ma frens n appreciate em no matter they ever did something for me or not; n im willing to help em as much as possible;but the problem is most of em dont feel the same way; they dont give a damn if  wether im doin okay or not;they dont give a damn if what they were doin could hurt me or not. What do they want is...they wanna make profit out of me n they dont give a damn if ill be going through a hard time fulfilling their will...n yess..imma fool who would do anythin for ma frens if i could..... I may seem strong on the outside but..hey...im a HUMAN...i DO have a HEART...its beating inside of me 24/7....though sometimes it stops to witness how mean ma frens were... T_________________T ~~ merajoklah mcmni....hukk

Aku DaN PenyakiTs~~

Assalamualaikum~
 Ako tak pasti kenapa ako sgt kerap dilanda penyakit....samada penyakit itu menyukai ako...ato ako yg menyukai penyakit itu...tetapi ako semmgnya amat kerap dilanda penyakit...time 1st year in japan...mule2 dtg dh kene alergic kat salji..bengkak2 ruam2 sume...petu patah tgn...petu tlinge bengkak sbb alergic kat air laot...petu mate lak kuar bende2 ijao...petu skang ni kene INFLUENZA pulak..haaaa...no joke man...influenza type A beb...klo ako buat2 keras tanak g spital mmg ako takkan berada kat sini tules blog....sampaikan org spital tu dh kenal ako dh....sampai ako dh hafal jalan nk g spital.....sampaikan ade org spital pinjamkan buku untok ako sbb die nampak ako sgt dipress.die kesian petu kasi buku lawak kat ako..haha....adoi...
 Kat mesia plak...balek time summer ritu..tibe2 dapat dirrhea ngn demam panas...petu dapat detect pnyakit...humm...kene pantang2....takleh makan daging..takleh makan ikan bilis...takleh makan togey....takleh makan kubis..gilak ah...time kecik2 dlu kene demam campak sampai 2-3 kali..org lain kene sekali jerk..petu kalo demam sampai nampak2 antu setan....kesian mama ako kene jage ako dlu..so lepas ni sape jadi laki ako kesian jugakla kat die...ako slalu kene pnyakit....
 Ade sennpai ako ckp ako slalu kene saket2 ni sbb ako tak mkn nasik..petu suke lasak2...betol ke?hummm...dh nk wat cane ako tak suke makan nasik..omputih takpe pon tak makan nasik...org itali ilek jerk tak makan nasik...nape lak ako tk makan nasik jadik saket2? haaaa....tlg terangkan disitu...klo takde penerangan logik maksodnye takde kaitan la antara nasik n penyakits2 ako tuh kan...

JangAn MonYeT~~

Panas boleh bikin ganas;

sblom ini semua serah pada yg Atas;

tapi kali ini tulang empat kerat yg terasa deras;

putih tak beerti bersih;

merah bukan selalunya darah;

angguk tk semestinya tundok;

kecil jgn disangka lembik;

sekali mungkin salah anggapan;

2 kali hati tak kesah kalo dibiarkan;

3 kali dikira mencabar kalbu pahlawan;

bak kata pepatah orang  melayu;  

biar mati anak jangan mati adat;

tapi bukanlah minta sanjung;

bukan minta junjung;

cukup sudah asal tak lebih garisan ulung;

andai kata pagar diceroboh;

taman dimusnah;

api dinyala;

maka jangan salahkan sesiapa andai sakit hinggap di tubuh;

sudah ku kenal mana buku mana ruas;

tapi buku jangan di anggap slalu mnjadi juara;

ruas jangan dianggap lembik tak berbisa;

FaKe PlasTic Trees

 Fall back; take a look at me n u'll see im for real; i feel what only i cant feel; and if that dont appeal to ya let me know; n ill go; coz i flow better when ma colours show; and thats the way it has to be; honestly; coz creativity could never bloom in ma room; id throw it all away before i lie; so dont call me with e compromise; hang up the phone i got a back bone stronger than urs.
 U dont know; u think u know me like urself but i fear; that ur only tellin me what i wanna hear; but do u give a damn? understand that i cant not be what i am; im not the milk and cherios in ur spoon; its not a simple 'here we go' not so soon; i might have fallen for that when i was 14; n a little more green; but its amazing how a couple of years could mean;
if ur try to messin with ma head its easy to see im not down with that; im not  nobodys fool
if ur try to playin me around its easy to see; i might switch the role that we r playin; im not nobodys fool
try to look me in the eye n tell what u see inside; just try to figure out what im all about......
n if u wanna bring me down...just go ahead n try....

bowlsheet~~

Assalamualaikum
 1st of all imma say that this is ma personal opinion....if u like it just give a waka2 dance for me but i f u dont....just give me a polite comment or...man just flip ur hair n move on...
 In ma own philosophy guys r UNtrustable....dont be so happy when they say u look cute;dont trust em when they say they could never look at another women;dont trust a guys promises;dont trust em when they say that ur cookin was a blast;dont trust em when they say that they dont care how u look as long as u love em......coz....it is said that men have 1 lust with 9 intelligents....that 1 lust is...WOMEN.....so no matter how strong a man is...his biggest temptation is women.....so guys if u r reading this..dont deny me coz thats what u r....hahaha..so ladies...dont trust guys.dont give ur all.u might fall on ur face...instead...trust ur daddy,trust ur brothers,n trust ur husband.........coz men were made to carry responsible....once they comitted to somethin i believe theyll hold on to it.. =)  now whos with me???!! \(^^)/

what the hell am i goin to be in the next 10 years

assalamualaikum
 Yall wanna know what? yall r so freakin worried bout whats gonna happen in the future...how r u gonna get married;how r u gonna support ur child;how r u goin to pass all ur exams;how r u goin to give birth and such....well ladies...u dont have to...why? simple...its already fixed....we dont have the answer for the future...and dont be a stupid asshole to predict how ur life is going to b in the future..all we can do is work;bust ur cute asses to get what u want...thats rite yalll dig it if u want it...then pray for it...pray so that God would make ur wishes come true...coz without His permisssion u aint goin nowhere honey..only God have the answer..coz He knows best..If we dont get what we wanted after we work hard for it thats okay coz maybe thats not the best for us...maybe something better is waiting out there but what important is to try ur best to get it....and even if u dont get it...there ll b no regrets...at least uve tried and its just not the best for u...so chill out...enjoy ur life...life is a game...we r all gonna end up the same...so its not bout how we end up like..its how u get to the end...dont b scared to take any risks or making big deciscion in ur life coz nobody knows...only God...